Anonymous asked: That post really helped! wow! i'm glad i'm following you! never stop blogging <3
Thank you, Anon. We don’t ever plan to stop blogging!
Anonymous asked: being depressed makes me so lazy. i don't do anything. i hate it about myself, i feel so worthless and hopeless and lazy and gross. i have exams in a week and i can't even pick up my books. i just sleep and cry all day. and smoke weed and eat sometimes. i just, hate myself so much.
Depression is exhausting. You spend all day dealing with emotions that are awful, and it’s exhausting and takes all of your energy. It doesn’t make you worthless to be tired and unmotivated after dealing with depression.
I think you should talk to someone. If it’s affecting your life and ability to function this badly, your depression is a problem. Talk to someone about how you’re feeling and get help. If you get help, you can feel better and find the energy to do things.
-Cameron
Also, no judgement whatsoever, but the smoking weed thing isn’t going to make anything better, trust me. Especially if you’re on medication, alcohol and weed and general substances can really mess them up. I went through a period where I was forgetting my meds sometimes and also smoking more than usual and I don’t know if it was the inconsistency or the weed but either way it reslly fucked me up. I don’t know if you’re on any medications now but either way it might be a good idea to keep that to a minimum, because I know it can be a tricky habit to break, and if you’re not on medication now and you end up on some, it’s a good idea to do as little as possible.
-Mackenzie
Anonymous asked: (TW) I've felt pretty bad for a while now, but recently, some really bad things have happened and I've started cutting. I don't have anyone to talk to about it any more, and that just makes it worse. Some days are worse than others, and I'm worried that there will be one bad day that just makes me cut too deep. I'm worried that if I do cut too deep, no one will even care.
There’s someone you can talk to about it in your life, I promise. There’s always someone who you can go to and tell about your problems, and they will help you. Your parents, a school counsellor, someone. You can tell them that you feel bad and you’re cutting and they will help you.
Find that person who will listen and tell them what’s going on, okay? Tell them before it does get to that point where you cut too deep. You don’t want to get to that point, ever.
-Cameron
TW - Self Harm: A Note on the Rubber Band Thing
Most of you have likely heard about the self-harm quitting method of snapping a rubber band on your wrist. It’s a good idea to use as an alternative but as Cameron pointed out in a recently answered ask, it will make your wrists raw if you do it too much. I tried it once and it did that to me because I snapped too hard and too often. So if you want to try using an alternative but you are worried about getting carried away, I’ve got a suggestion — ice cubes. Take an ice cube and hold it to bare skin, a forearm, thigh, wherever you normally self-harm. Your brain can’t distinguish between extreme heat and extreme cold so it’ll feel a little like a burn, but it will leave no permanent damage. If you’re someone who needs the visual stimulation of self-harm, use a red marker and draw cut-like lines around where you’re holding the ice cube. By the time it melts, your urge will hopefully have passed and you won’t end up with raw wrists.
P.S. Look I used proper grammar instead of my usual adorable no-capital-letters-and-minimal-punctuation thing!
-Mackenzie
Anonymous asked: I want to kill myself. I feel so useless.
TW - suicide
You aren’t useless. You’re beautiful and fantastic and have so much to give to the world, so don’t cut that short. I don’t know how close you are to trying to kill yourself, but I really think you should consider calling a hotline or telling someone that you’re suicidal. Don’t isolate yourself when you feel bad like this.
If you have a plan to kill yourself, or have already hurt yourself, go to the hospital or call 911 right away.
-Cameron
Anonymous asked: does snapping your wrist with a rubber band when you want to cut really work to stop cutting?
TW - self harm
It does for some people, and it doesn’t for others. The point of it is that it still hurts, but it’s not as dangerous as cutting. I know for me personally, snapping the rubber band became a form of self harm that was just as dangerous as cutting. I started doing it hard enough to give myself bruises and make the skin completely raw. But I know a lot of people don’t take it to that extreme and successfully stop cutting.
-Cameron
Anonymous asked: (1/2)ive been cutting for two years. i'll do it for a couple weeks, then stop for a couple weeks. then do it again. i haven't done it in about a month. but last night i had this huge urge to do it. ive recently had this "i don't care" attitude. because people in school started to hate me and they'll walk by me in the halls and give me weird looks or say something to me. and nothings bothering me anymore. but i still feel like shit. i took a depression test online last night and it said i have
(2/2) major high depression and bipolar and clythona (something like that) and something that starts with a d. that’s the same as clythonia. i don’t even remember. but i didn’t know what they were, so i researched them, it was pretty accurate on how i am. i just don’t even know what to do at this point because everything seems so pointless. i feel numb of my emotions. and i wanna cut to feel something. im afraid to ask for help. that’s why i’m coming here.
TW - self harm
Before I start, I’m going to give you an obligatory warning on self diagnosis, and on using internet tests to diagnose yourself! Most of those disorders you mentioned have symptoms that exclude each other, so I really think you shouldn’t get too worked up about what they said. I’m not saying you don’t have a problem, but don’t put too much faith into those tests, okay?
You’re making a good first step by coming here, but you need more help than Mackenzie and I can give you. I know you don’t care about much right now, but try to care about yourself. You feel awful, and you don’t have to feel awful. Tell someone how you feel right now. Tell your parents or another adult you trust to be able to help you. They can get you the support you need to stop cutting and feel things without it.
-Cameron
Anonymous asked: I started cutting a few months ago, but I then had to stop because my mom found out.. But, i've started again since a month or so.. My mom thinks I stopped. I just feel even worse than before actually, i always feel so depressed and just wanna die. for many reasons, i hate myself so much, and depression just eats me alive. I even started starving myself since a few days.. I don't want to do something worse though, i know i need help but i'm too scared asking for it.. :(
TW - self injury
Please, please, tell your mom. Tell her everything you’re feeling and doing and ask her to take you to a doctor or therapist. Don’t be afraid. It doesn’t hurt to get help. In fact, it feels great to get help and start feeling better. It feels awesome to start recovering from self destructive behaviours. Tell her and get help, okay? It’s not scary to get help, promise.
-Cameron
Anonymous asked: (cont, tw) friend group, and the fact that my ex themselves is getting over being molested and can be very triggered, and I don't want to hurt them. I don't want to seek professional help because I don't want to believe that it happened, or for someone to help me get over something I might just be making up in my head, but at the same time, I can't be near them without being triggered. Am I just making this all up? I'm wondering. Am I just a terrible person who can't get over a bad relationship?
I think tumblr decided not to give me the first part of your question, but I’ll answer what I have!
If you think something sexual happened to you when you did not consent, it means that something probably happened. You aren’t making it up, don’t ever think you’re making it up. Too many victims are told what happened to them wasn’t real, and it is real. Even though I don’t know the entire circumstances, I would really see a professional. Denying that something happened doesn’t help you recover from it.
-Cameron
Anonymous asked: how are you guys tonight? i am NOT in a good place tonight. hate feeling like this. like i'm tired and done. eh. anyway x
I wasn’t in a good place last night either, but I feel better this morning. I decided to go to sleep, and I hope after you sent this you did the same. I hope you’re in a better place this morning, Anon.
-Cameron
Anonymous asked: I know how you feel, me and my bf have scars from SH every time I tell him he's perfect He just... shuts down. He doesn't get that he'll be perfect to me no matter what.
yeah it’s so tough when you just want them to know how absolutely wonderful they are but they just can’t see it. he is literally my soul mate. and i didn’t even believe in soul mates until him.
-mackenzie
Anonymous asked: that piece of writing was actually really good. you are a really nice writer. only one minor grammatical thing that i wasn't sure about: " You never cry until after you found him, ". i would personally swap the "found" for "find" or "have found". just sounds better imo. x
oh yeah good call on the grammar thing, thank you! i tend to write really quickly so i miss little things sometimes, thanks. i’m glad you liked it, thank you so much <3
-mackenzie
kipsalm2710 asked: Hey I am here for anyone... Please let your followers know....If you need to vent, I am here for you and I won't judge Please I care <3
could someone read this please and tell me if it’s good?
my stupid creative writing class which is the absolute bane of my existence is demanding that i hand in my best prose piece as part of my final. and i wrote this like a long time ago and i literally have no concept of whether or not it sucks. it’s probably 100% fucking terrible but if someone would just verify or disprove that statement i’d be much obliged.
i guess it’s sort of a TW for addictions but not a super intense one.
-mackenzie
needhelp-justask asked: hello,i've been wanting to set up an advice blog for a while now and I finally have! your blog has helped inspire me to do this,would you mind telling people about this blog,because I would really like to start helping people!xx
No problem :)
